I thought I knew some things
like the surety of the rapture.
A belief suckled from the breasts
of old gospel songs
sang in Native tongues.
Inside the borrowed Sunday walls,
they preached about love.
Forgiveness.
Honesty.
Those teachings discarded at the
end of each service.
We thought we knew some things.
Maybe we did,
but we didn’t know ourselves.
*
I knew with certainty
that my grandmothers hands
were baptized by the forest
and pristine mountain waters.
Her hands, I knew, hold healing powers,
Yet she’s unable to heal herself.
Old emotional wounds manifesting
themselves in physical ailments.
She prays to a Jesus on the bedroom wall
that she knows to be real
but lacks faith,
in his ability to respond.
*
I knew that
a heavy rain signals a rebirth
taking place somewhere
under solemn heavy burdened skies.
I remember it coming down
that spring day
I faced my demons and rescued
the woman inside I condemned to die.
*
When I was 10
I knew that I would find a knight
in shining armour and
we would ride off on his stallion.
He would rescue me from my secrets.
I knew that I’d never be a struggling single mother,
never hurt those I love the most,
never do things that would not be acceptable
under the watchful eyes of
the Lord.
*
I thought I knew
that love overcomes it all.
Real love,
could wade through the thick of poverty,
traverse the landscape of addictions,
survive humbly through depressions
and emerge
a grateful victor.
*
I thought I knew some things.
Now I know,
that I can only wait
for the unraveling
of what is.
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